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When Chronic Illness Makes Me Feel Worthless

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There are days when I feel absolutely worthless. Days where I contemplate the reality of my life, and seemingly everything comes up short. 
Let’s go through the list of disappointments, shall we?I am a 21 year old 3-time college drop out.I have maybe one semester of college completed, and most of those units come from AP classes I took in high school.I haven’t had a job in 3 years.The only job I’ve ever had was dressing up as a princess for kids birthday parties so my overall work experience is lacking.Last summer I tried dogsitting for two weeks and I got so insanely sick from it that my parents had to take over because I collapsed in my cousin’s driveway and literally couldn’t move for 3 days. I have zero income. I applied for Disability benefits and was denied because I never held a job that paid into social security.Isn’t it dumb that I can’t work due to being disabled and I can’t get Disability because I haven’t worked?I haven’t driven for 7 months.I volunteered at a hospital last…