Showing posts from December, 2018

Gluten Free Triple Chocolate Cookies

Ingredients1 1/4 cups softened butter2 cups granulated sugar2 large eggs2 cups gluten free all purpose flour (I use Bob’s Red Mill or a mega bag from Costco)2 teaspoons vanilla extract3/4 cups unsweetened cocoa powder1/2 teaspoon baking powder1/2 teaspoon baking soda1/4 teaspoon salt1/3 cups mini chocolate chips3/4 cups dark chocolate chips/morsels1-2 cups white chocolate chips

Baking Instructions
Preheat oven to 350 degrees Fahrenheit Using a stand mixer or a hand mixer, cream butter and sugar together on low-medium speed.Once combined, add eggs one at a time and mix in between each egg, then add and mix in vanilla.In a second bowl, lightly whisk together flour, cocoa powder, baking soda, baking powder, and salt.Gradually add dry ingredients to wet ingredients and mix until well combined.Mix in chocolate chips (add as many as you damn well please, I won’t judge)Chill in fridge for 30 minutesDrop 9-12 small balls on a parchment paper-lined baking sheet(Optional) add 3-4 white chocolate …

5 Tips to Survive Chronically Ill Holidays

The holidays and chronic illness do not mix well on any level, so here are some of my tips on how to survive the holidays without having more physical and mental breakdowns than necessary:

1. Keep in mind that you DO NOT need to celebrate at all.  This tip may ruffle some feathers because the holidays have been so deeply ingrained in us as staples of our lives that we often don't even consider the fact that we technically do not have to celebrate at all if we don't want to.  Notice I'm not telling you not to celebrate, nor am I even suggesting that you not celebrate.  I am focused on the mindset here.  Because if you keep telling yourself that you have to do xyz and you have to celebrate in all the ways you did before you got sick, you're gonna have a nervous breakdown (trust me, I've been there, it aint fun).  You're setting your expectations too high. BUT if you tell yourself "wow I don't have to celebrate at all" you're setting the bar sup…

Why I Hate Christmas

Hi I'm Kayla and I hate Christmas.

Yup, that's right. Go ahead, call me Scrooge, call me The Grinch.  I am immune to your taunts because I simply do not care.

I don't actually remember ever loving Christmas.  I liked Christmas day as a kid, but even then I didn't love it, nor did I like the time leading up to it.  I think a lot of it had to do with my Panic Disorder and general anxiety.  Christmas is a crazy overstimulating time for people who get overwhelmed easily.  There's always so much going on and so many bright lights and sounds it just made me unbelievably anxious and uncomfortable. 

I always HATED going out to look at Christmas lights.  I could not (and still can not) understand how it isn't widely considered weird to drive out of your way to neighborhoods that are not yours to drive agonizingly slowly past (or, God forbid, get out of the car and STAND outside) strangers' houses just to look at an overwhelming array of fluorescent lights.  I don…

My Illness Journey Part 6: Paralyzed Stomach

Hi I'm Kayla and I have a pacemaker for my stomach.

I bet most of y'all didn't even know they made those.  Well neither did I until late last year.  Around the same time my neuropathy began improving, my stomach died, because of course it did.  No really it just up and stopped stomach-ing.

I got referred to a Gastroenterologist and got what is affectionately known in the medical field as a "double dip" (aka a colonoscopy and endoscopy at the same time, aka they stick a camera up your butt and down your throat). Lovely.  That showed nothing so on to the next test: a smart-pill endoscopy to show my small intestine.  I literally swallowed a camera while it was flashing.  It never made it to my small intestine, it just sat in my stomach for 12 hours.  From this I was diagnosed with Gastroparesis.  That translates to stomach paralysis.

(Lemme just say that after all these gastrointestinal tests, I have consumed my fill of disgusting liquids for this lifetime; good Lo…

My Illness Journey Part 5: Relearning To Walk

Hi I'm Kayla and I have had to completely relearn how to walk.

By the time I got a consultation appointment at the Loma Linda Neuropathic Therapy Center, I was not only completely wheelchair, house, and bed-bound, but I was literally unable to stand for 10 seconds without passing out.  I had gotten so ill that I was beginning to lose hope.

Then, I met Dr. Bussell, a man who knows more about neuropathy and the inner functioning of the human body than any doctor I've ever met.  He had created a new, non medication-based technique to treat neuropathy which involves putting pressure on major blood vessels in order to redirect blood where it needs to go.  Kind of like a far more intuitive and customized compression sock for your whole body.

The doctor and his colleagues assessed me and quickly began to realize that my case was incredibly severe.  Basically, my heart was unable to pump enough blood to my legs or head, which is what had been causing my pain, dizziness, everything.